I don't hate the club but I have resentment alot of it.
Built up over the years obviously and whilst I go as I go with two mates to get away from the wives that resentment is such where I can talk with the lads and not pay attention to the game whatsoever once the pattern of it has been established.
Last season I enjoyed fully was 2001.
Our 6 wins in 2010 especially the Sydney one where Collins was knocked down but returned to kick the winner a highlight plus Jack's 78 goals really gave me the hope after the disaster of 2009 and all our failures from the 82 GF until that Round 1 2009 game where I wanted to believe but there was evidence there so it was all blind I guess from our oart.
Essendon Dreamtime 2011 was great too given we played in front of 83K and won anfd the Sydney and Hawthorn games at the G in 2012. I thought we were staring at something significant, the likes of which we haven't seen as I was only 7 in 1982.
Plus the bragging rights was good given all the crap I copped from family and friends over the journey.
Sadly now I am whatever. I put my ray of hope into the dark tunnel and Benny offered me that dim light and I took it, because it came from him reputable, intelligent, driven, successful off field with AFLPA and most of all he had the respect of the footy community. Enough for me to hang on.
Now even Benny is giving me the skatas.
I was younger and optimistic and once upon a time used to look forward to the footy.
Now its just an excuse to get out of the house catch up with the boys and talk crap while we watch it.
Even my motives for going are hollow. But we press on.
Call it stupidity, call it loyalty, call it not wanting to mow the lawn, call it whatever.
I think we all deserve sustained success and a few premierships given our efforts.
RFC and its fans waiting for a success since 1980. A terrible marriage. I can understand the separation and divorce from the RFC people want to commit to.
