Ben Cousins' woes laid bare in documentary Such Is Life Aaron Langmaid
Herald Sun
August 25, 2010 9:18PMFOOTAGE of a partying Ben Cousins smoking amphetamines in a crack pipe and details about his spectacular fall from grace have finally been revealed in a confronting television documentary.
Such is Life - The Troubled Times of Ben Cousins hooked thousands of viewers across Australia last night with a candid and sometimes uncomfortable insight into the drug addiction that took control of one of the AFL's biggest stars.
Cousins said he hoped his story would ultimately help save lives.
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Alarming images of the footballer smoking drugs were shown just two minutes into the program as Cousins confessed to being a regular social drug user from age 17.
And cocaine was his drug of choice.
The intimate account also revealed Cousins:
SWAM halfway across a river the night he fled the scene of a booze bus in 2006;
DIDN'T think he was an addict when he was first sent to Los Angeles for rehabilitation;
WENT on a five-day bender after the overdose death of former West Coast player Chris Mainwaring;
TREATED drugs as a reward at the end of hard games; had
NEVER taken performing enhancing drugs to play better; and believes he was
SETUP by police after his shirtless arrest in Perth in 2007.
``There would be a time and a place for speed, there would be a time and a place for ecstasy, cocaine was my drug of choice, no question, but Valium played a huge part in that and Xanax played a huge part in that,'' Cousin said.
``I wouldn't have butter on my toast, let alone have a beer (but) I would take drugs.
``I would train and f---ing train and obsess and play good footy and the thing that would get me through those tough moments, those tough days, ... was I knew at the end ... I was going to absolutely annihilate and launch into as much drugs as I could.''
Cousins said he was an ``extremist'' and possessed the ability to focus on what he wanted.
``The unique thing about my situation was that I was applying that same obsession to football as I was with drugs.
``I loved to train, I loved everything about preparing to play footy.''
At the height of his success in Perth, his dad Bryan said he became concerned his son had been ``built up'' too much and pleaded with West Coast Eagles bosses not to make him captain of the team. But his request was ignored.
But it was the Eagle's defeat at the 2005 grand final that Cousins said marked the beginning of downhill spiral.
The night he fled the booze bus, Cousins said he ``wasn't messing around''.
``I couldn't tell you how many houses I jumped through. I was jumping over back fences, I was on top of roofs and I took off across the river.
And he said he had struggled to come to terms with Chris Mainwaring's death because he was the last person to see him alive.
`` I have my own opinion on what happened ... I left him in a good state,'' Cousins said. ``I had no immediate concern for his well being and I think (his death) was a tragic accident.''
Questions were also raised over the legitimacy of Cousins' shirtless arrest in Perth that led to him being sacked by the Eagles.
Former manager Ricky Nixon, questioned how a television network would have been able to capture the moment he was caught, without being tipped off by police.
But it wasn't until a second bender in the US, having fled the intense media scrutiny in Australia, Nixon said he feared for his clients life
The footballer disappeared after his arriving in Los Angeles and landed in hospital after a drug binge.
``You sit there at times thinking, `I'll get him out of this'... `this will be ok','' Nixon said.
``(But) I went home and thought `my God, he is going to die ... have I done enough? Has his family done enough? Have I let him down?''
The second episode airs on Channel Seven tonight at 8.30pm.
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